Depression

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Lost In The Woods

Fear Is A Liar

35 year old me

We Can't Always Bloom And That's Okay

Finding The Answer To The Pressures Of Covid-19

It's Okay To Feel During Covid-19

Developing A Growth Mindset When You Are Depressed

A Letter To My Strong-Willed Son

Drink More Tea Mama

Finding God in the Difficult Times

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WHO AM I ?

Fear Is A Liar

It’s easy to live in fear without knowing you are afraid. Fear slowly builds a nest in your head, adding a twig of shame here and a stick

It's Okay To Feel During Covid-19

Comparing your situation to someone else's is one of the worst things you can do during Covid-19.

Developing A Growth Mindset When You Are Depressed

New growth is an important part of life, growth gives us those lessons we can share and inspire others with. Growth gives us the pieces to t

Drink More Tea Mama

I looked down at my tea cup and it said Best Wife Ever. And I thought to myself wait a minute, your mind has gone in a spiral. You went from

Finding God in the Difficult Times

Getting stuck and in a funk is hard. I hate it. I hate the way I treat others, I hate the way I isolate myself, I hate the person I am when

Understanding Shame And How To Overcome It

My story of overcoming the shame from sexual assault and addiction. How to understand what the voice of shame is and 5 tips to overcome sham

Finding My Truth After Trauma Triggers

It’s been a while since I've shared. I've realized my truth comes out in my words. But I have not been sure what to say. After a lot of...

Treading the Waters of Depression

I have bouts of depression. It pains me to admit that, I don’t want to believe it. But I have the kind of depression that doesn’t go away. S

Digging Up Old Roots And Growing New Ones

Some days I feel like giving up, screaming why, and ignoring the truth. I had deep roots that were uncovered in a storm. I tried to forget t

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Lost In The Woods

Fear Is A Liar

35 year old me

Hello! My name is Carrie Usmar. I married a Brit. We have three children. We moved from the suburbs to the country. I am not a country girl but God has a way of teaching me about the country life.

I have depression, it never goes away and still hits me hard sometimes. I like to write about it, share my stories and hopefully help people to know they are not alone.

I've always been a freak. But I buried that part of me for a long time. Thankfully I learned I love Carrie Usmar, freakness and all.

I love to dance and lip sync and share my ridiculous videos in my instagram stories.

I am imperfect, broken, and proud, and I'm taking it one day at a time. Thank you for being here with me.